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Friday, October 31, 2008

Screwed my biology paper2 today. Haha. =/

Wanted to watch High School Musical3 after my paper with huiting & kejun.

End up we went to have our dinner at NewYork NewYork! ^^

I ordered a chocolate icecream waffle & potato wedges! Wahaha!

The waffle is damn nice! Chocolate everywhere! =X

Think i'm gaining weight because of o'levels stress! Shit!

I need to control on my intake of tibits! LOL.

I want play basketball! I want to have PE lessons! =)

Lalala! That's all for today! =)

I miss some of my primary school friends!

Hope we will get a chance to meet up soon! =D

Do takecare! ^^

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with love, hann ❤22:50

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Internet was down these few days.

Can't blog & was busy studying for papers.

Hai. Think i screwed quite a lot of papers le. Omg la.

Don't think i can get into the course that i wanted anymore. =/

Maybe i can't even get into a JC! Haha! -.-

I'm going crazy! =/

Went to buy tibits again after history paper. Munching again.

Huiting & i were kinda crazy after the history paper due to DEPRESSION! LOL.

We were like crapping & laughing the whole time! =X

I think ahboii is also influence by us! Wahaha! See we so pro! =)

Hai. Having physics paper tomorrow.

Hope my physics won't pull down my overall combined science marks. =/

This year's o'levels is damn killer sia. The history SBQs are like shit.

Hai. So depressed. =/

Some more papers to go! Jiayous all! =)

Huiting ar! Don't think too much! Jiayous! Gambate!

Don't give yourself too much stress & pressure ehhs!

Do takecare! =D

Yeah! Booking chalet when november starts!

Lalala! =)

with love, hann ❤19:44

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

English papers & amaths paper1 down.

English was okay i think. But i screwed my amaths paper1.

Think i'm gonna fail my amaths paper1! Have to work harder for paper2!

Was having headache this few days when doing paper.

Just have to study, study & more study! =/

Thanks ahboii for teaching amaths today. Though i keep making the same mistakes.

Haha. Hope i didn't pissed you just now. Hee. =X

Went to buy more tibits after my paper. Munching all the way! =)

I'm gonna get fat too! Hai.

I'm kinda disappointed with myself. Just can't score well for amaths.

I'm dumb! )=

Going crazy anytime. Stupid! =/

Going to school for studying again tomorrow.

Chionging amaths & emaths. =)

Lalala! 5 papers down! Some more to go! =/

with love, hann ❤18:41

Monday, October 20, 2008

I think i screwed my chemistry paper today!

Omg la! Don't think i will score as well. =/

Sian. I screwed my practicals & now my paper semi-screwed.

Need to work harder for my physics now in order to pull up my grade!

Went to school today at around 9plus. At least i feel that i had enough sleep! =)

Continue my revisions with ahboii in school.

Hope he will score much more better than his prelims results, if not i can go suicide. =X

I feel so screwed after the chemistry paper is over. =/

I was telling huiting not to think so much about chemistry paper since it's over.

But ended up, she told me the same things that i told her. LOL.

Bought tibits & went back to school to revise on my english.

Was munching away while reading the composition tys. =X

I've made more plans for my birthday celebration next year! Wahaha!

Think i'll be having the BBQ on 13 feb-friday night ba. =)

Since my birthday falls on valentine's day, i shall not occupy the night & disturb those couples!

I shall have fun with all my friends! ^^

Good luck & jiayous to all my friends for o'levels!

Work hard & do your best! =)

1 paper down! Some more to go! LOL.

Gambate! <3

with love, hann ❤19:31

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Will be having chemistry paper tomorrow. =/

Hope i can score well for the paper since i screwed my practicals! Haha.

I must get my A for combined science! =/

Went to library at 10plus to study chemistry with huiting & kejun.

Chiong finish a chemistry paper & went for lunch at KFC.

Got damn pissed when doing another chemistry paper.

The answer behind are all shit! Hell damn crappy la! f3.

Their questions also got problem. Then answers like shit. -.-

Slack for quite a long time as kejun & i started playing with our phones. =X

I went off earlier because need to go relative's house for celebration.

So sorry to kejun & huiting. =/

Was quite bored there, nothing much to do but eat & eat & eat.

Ahh.. I'm just gonna get fat! Sian.

Just reached home & started blogging! ^^

Oya! Huiting & i bought a Benko pouch to put our phones! =)

Will post the pictures asap!

Do note that we are NOT lesbians ehhs!

Eventhough we do have a lot of similar things. Haha. ^^

Having muscle cramps over all my body.

Due to studying too much i think! LOL.

Been sitting on a stupid chair for don't know how many hours everyday.

I've been planning about my birthday celebration next year!

Can't get it off my mind. LOL.

I'm damn excited about it! Hope everyone will enjoy it!

Lalala! =)

Other things will just have to leave it till o'levels are over.

By that time, i will be able to sort out all my thoughts & make the right decisions for myself.

So please, don't come & bug me about it.

It's my choice to choose who i wana hang out with.

When i'm with a guy, it doesn't mean that i'm together with that guy.

So just shut your trap & live your own life. =)

with love, hann ❤20:07

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Which is really the feeling that i wanted?

Or maybe is just only me who is feeling this way.

I can't seem to make up my mind.

I've lose all the confidence in it. Should i give it another chance?

I don't want to get hurt again. Can you understand?

Maybe i shouldn't be expecting too much.

I'm just a nobody, a sucker wasting the earth's resources.

I saw a father riding a bicycle with her daughter behind today.

I envy her, i really do.

How i wish i could still have the chance.

The images of you in my memories are fading.

I don't want it to fade away. I don't want to forget your looks.

I don't want to forget the times we hadd together.

I really can't bear to let go eventhough it's been 3years.

with love, hann ❤22:45

Friday, October 17, 2008

I freaking screwed my chemistry practical! Hais. Damn depressed.

Physics practical was still okay. =)

I think all my solutions all are fucking contaminated la!

All the results that i've got are shits! =/

Hai. Gone case for my combined science practicals.

Just had to work hard for the rest of the papers ba. =/

I'm gonna be freaking stress for the next week!

I don't think i have enough time to revise all my work. Haha. =/

Studied in school today till late.

Was damn tiredd. Didn't have much choice but to continue.

I won't let those fucking relatives have a chance to laugh at me! =)

I'm booking a chalet on 13,14 & 15 february next year to celebrate my birthday!

All my friends, do make sure that those days you are free!

You can stay overnight if you want! But can't too much people ehhs.

So do let me know earlier! =)

I will fill in more details when o'levels are over! ^^

I don't know what's going on in there.

I feel that i'm such a sucker.

What should i do to ensure that my decisions are the correct ones?

Will i be happy with my decisions?

Or will i be alone after that?

with love, hann ❤19:38

Monday, October 13, 2008

I did something stupid today due to my curiousity.

I shouldn't have asked the question.

It's too late now as everyone has a copy of it.

Hai. Regret to the core. Wtf.

Maybe i'm just thinking too much.

I don't know & don't wish to think about it.

Will we be friends again?

Many things happen, maybe it had already changed your opinion of me.

There's nothing i can do about it.

I hate my life.

Will miss everyone in school! Do takecare all!

Fucked upp life with fuckers doing fucking things. f3.

I want to end my life. =/

with love, hann ❤18:52

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Tomorrow will be the official graduation day.

There's a mixture of happiness & saddness in me. =/

I don't want to leave school! I can't bear to be separated from my friends!

I'm gonna take a lot of pictures with all my friends tomorrow!

How i wish everything will stay the same.

Loves 3/4Integrity'07/08 !

Loves my gang! LOL.

Loves my family of plants & animals!

Loves my MaoFamily!

Loves all my friends!

EXTREME LOVES to :

Huiting! <3

Ahboii! <3

Kejun! <3

Ruofan! <3

Yixuan! <3

Dongfang! <3

Minyi! <3

Amelia! <3

Wendy! <3

Jingyi! <3

Hongwei! <3

Hweeping! <3

Shimin! <3

Janice! <3

Qinglin! <3

Thanks all of you for being my friends & add colours to my life!

It's my honour to have all of you in my life! ^^

Wahaha! I love everyone! =X

There's no special arrangement in case you all ask!

Loves! <3

with love, hann ❤20:25

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Went to help ma in shop in the morning.

I was quite slack because i'm quite tiredd. =X

When jie & i were about to go home at around 10am, we found something interesting!

There's a papaya which is attacked by maggots!

When i was trying to move the papaya, i touch some maggots!

Was shouting damn loud because i'm damn disgusted!

I TOUCH maggots! Argh! Omg la! =/

Rush to the toilet to wash my hand immediatly. LOL.

After that we took the papaya inside the shop to explore in detailed.

Jie took the knife & started cutting it to find more maggots.

There's more than 10 maggots in that damn papaya la! =X

It's so gross that i don't know what i can say to describe it. Haha.

Went home after that. Without the papaya of course! =)

Met ahboii in the noon for studying.

Taught ahboii chemistry & did some biology tys questions.

Was chatting & playing too. But studying was the main priority! =)

Studied till 6pm, then ahboii sent me home till the void deck. LOL.

Was telling ahboii about the plans i've made about next year's birthday celebrations.

Had some discussion about it with huiting yesterday.

We were both so excited about it when o'levels aren't over yet. LOL.

I'm planning to book a chalet on my birthday as it's on a saturday.

I will fill in more details as the day comes nearer! =)

Hope all my friends will be able to attend it!

I can't bear to leave school.

I will miss all my friends!

I don't want the last day to come! )=

Here are some of the pictures that i've took.

Have fun looking at it! ^^

Maggot! Argh! Gross!

Look at the maggots!

Compare the size! LOL. =)

Mama apple with baby apple!

It's Benko2/Benkoko with his sword! =X

Another gloomy bear to my collection! <3

Beautiful sight at Pasir Ris Park. =)

My masterpiece on the beach! =D

Memories of Tonning outside because of Jam! =X

This is how early we got there!

The best picture of Jam that i have! Loves! <3

My 2 Jam's autographed albums! Wahaha! ^^

with love, hann ❤20:18

Friday, October 10, 2008

Happy belated birthday to dongfang & happy birthday to Mr James Lee! ^^

All the best to both of you! Do takecare & stay happy!

Today's lessons was kinda boredd.

I was quite sleepy in class. =X

English lessons was quite fun. Kejun & i was like playing during lessons.

I brought benko2/benkoko to school today!

Kejun snatch my benko2 & put it in her pocket. LOL.

We were chit-chatting instead of doing our work =X

Didn't had remedial lessons today as all the teachers are busy.

So i stayed in class for awhile as huiting's class was having their celebration.

Chit-chatting & playing benko2 with ahboii in class.

We were like talking to benko2. LOL. =X

Crazy ehhs? Haha. It's fun! =)

Went down to canteen to find huiting after that.

Played basketball with shimin, guangliang & weitong for awhile.

I want play basketball more! =/

Went to woodlands after that to buy water bottle with huiting.

I bought a purple one for myself! & a blue one for my jie.

Wahaha!~ I love my purple water bottle!

It looks like a bigbig milk bottle! LOL. =X

Think i'm gonna look like a big kiddo. =)

Went to Westmall after that to look for huiting's water bottle.

Didn't managed to buy the one she's looking for. But she bought a orange one! =)

Hadd Mudpie at amk hub before heading home!

Mudpie is nice! I love mudpie! Yeah! =X

Left one day before holiday! )=

I'm gonna miss school, all my friends & teachers!

Let us all enjoy the last day of school on monday! =D

Love you guys! Do takecare! ^^

with love, hann ❤20:33

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Today's feeling was weird.

I don't know how can i describe the feeling.

Was boredd during physics & history lessons.

Didn't plan to play powerball during PE lessons actually.

But i can't resist the temptations! Arghh!

So end upp i played all the way! lOlx.

I enjoyed all the powerball matches today!

It's the last PE lesson! I will miss all the PE lessons!

Yupp! I fell today again. LOL. -.-

I think i'm clumsy. Haha!

The skin came off slightly but it's okays!

I don't mind as long as it's a good game! ^^

I love PE! I love the sun! =)

But i don't wana get a heat stroke! LOL. =X

Did biology during night study.

Managed to finish quite a few topic's MCQs! =)

Ahboii kept disturbing me with 'the ants with wings'.

That's what he says! Well, i just called it a fly!

Short & sweet! LOL. ^^

Played with Benko quite alot today.

Benko is a good friend! =)

I'm gonna bring Benko2 to school tomorrow! LOL.

Yeah! Going to buy water bottles with huiting tomorrow!

I gonna get a PURPLE water bottle! ^^

Lalala!~ I'm happy today! =X

Seriously, i'm not angry with anyone.

I just wanted to know the truth.

So i'm sorry if i seems pissed with anyone.

I won't be bothered with things that made me unhappy.

I'm not going to care about stupid people doing stupid things!

I love all my friends! LOL.

To my family of plants & animals:

Sorry if i ever did something wrong or made any one of you pissed.

I still regards all of you as my friends. =)

Friends are for life! Lalalaa!

Thanks huiting & ahboii.

You 2 are the best! LOL.

All my friends are the best!

Lalala! It seems so long ago that i blogged such a happy post.

I shall end it here! I'm so sticky today! =X

Jiayous & good luck to all my friends for o'levels!

with love, hann ❤21:27

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

I don't know who i can trust.

I don't know who are really my friends.

I don't know what am i suppose to do.

I don't know what should i believe.

I don't know what's goin on.

I'm speechless.

I really don't know what more can i say.

Rumours are flying everywhere.

Why can't i even know the truth when the rumours are about me?

Believe what you people wants to.

I give up.

Kill me instead.

To the person who started the rumour:

Did i do anything bad to you?

Did i provoked you in any way?

Why must you do this to me?

If you want to scold me, just do it face to face.

There's no need to spread rumours & hurt other innocent people.

Really thanks ahboii & huiting a lot.

Thanks for being by my side when i needed someone.

To ahboii:

I'm so sorry that i've dragged you down with me.

So sorry.

with love, hann ❤22:15

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

I'm depressed again today.

I don't think i belong in this world at all.

No matter what happens, i will be alone at times.

I gave up. I hate the feeling of being outcasted.

I would rather be alone. I should be used to it i think.

Cried in class today. I tried not to but i can't hold it any longer.

Ahboii accompanied me for awhile. & i was feeling better after that.

I feel like ending my life. It sucks totally.

I know i'm at faults sometimes, but not everything is because of me.

Things you said sometimes pressurize me.

I hate the feeling, but you just can't get it.

Everything seems like i'm the one in fault.

I don't want things to end it this way, but i had already tried my best.

Believe or not is up to you people, i had nothing more to say.

Say whatever things you people want. I don't care anymore.

I know i'm close with ahboii.

But he's the only person i can rely on in class.

I just needed someone who i can rely on.

'yeah, it's just you with you fucking excuses.' i know.

Hai. I will hide it within myself.

I won't spoil your reputation.

I will suffer the pain myself.

I'm the evil one. I'm the bad one. I'm the loser.

Anyway, thanks ahboii, hongwei, venny & cai er. =)

I'm so sorry ahboii.

It's not that i want to ignore you. It's just that i didn't know what to say.

Hope you can understand & forgive me.

Sorry that i broke my promise today. I didn't know else can i do to vent my frustration.

I won't do it again le. Really. So sorry. =/

I want to end everything.

Including my life.

with love, hann ❤21:45

Monday, October 6, 2008

Fucking pissed off with some of my fucking relatives.

Fuckers who only wants to shirk their responsibility.

My grandmother is your mother not my mum's, you get it?

You all should be the ones taking care of her & not my mum.

Doesn't mean that my dad had passed away we must take over the responsibility okays?

My mum had tried her best to support the family & the maid she hired.

Can't you all just fucking bear some responsibilities as sons & daughters?

You think is easy to support a family as a single-parent?

My mum is just a daughter-in-law not daughter okays?

It not fully her responsibility to take care of my grandmother.

If you all don't bother to help then forget it, there's no need to add salt to the wounds.

Since all of you don't even bother to take care of you own mothers, then why should we?

We had helped hired the maid for so many years & we didn't even complain a single bit.

Now is not we don't want to help, is we are unable to help.

Can't you all just fork out some money & share to hire the maid instead of just us paying?

You thought we living in luxury ar?

You all are just selfish people. Just admit it.

There's no need for excuses when others already know what kind of person are you.

I finally know all your true colours. Everything in the past are all fake.

All you all care is yourself. Since is like that, what's the point of being relatives?

My dad is already gone, there's no more connection between you all & us.

We don't have to be the ones responsible for everything!

Fuckers. I really hate you all.

I'm disgrace to have you all as relatives.

Relatives who doesn't help each other. Fuck.

Sorry if i sounded damn vulgur.

I'm just freaking pissed.

with love, hann ❤21:03

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Happy belated birthday to my pigpig, wene!

& happy birthday to my korkor today! ^^

All the best & stay happy! Takecare! =D

Went to help mum in shop at around 6plus going 7am.

Was feeling quite sleepy there. =X

Fooling around with jie in the shop like 2 small kidds! lOlx.

Went home at about 11am. & watch tv progammes! =)

Bathe at 1130am because meeting ahboii after that.

Waited for don't know how long then ahboii finished his lunch.

Make me wana fall asleep. f3.

Met ahboii at near school there & walk to his house.

Studied in the air-con room today as outside's tables & chairs were wet.

Sitting inside is so difficult because we can't talk & play! =X

After doing work for a few hours we decided to take a walk outside.

Chit-chat at the playground for awhile & watch kidds playing in the pool.

Went back to take our things after that as ahboii's going out for dinner.

Ahboii accompany me 3/5 the way back home. lOlx. =X

Thanks ahboii & huiting for accompanying me. =)

I will solve the problems asap.

I will try to face my real emotions instead of hiding it.

I'm so sorry.

amithinkingtoomuchorwhat?

ijusthopethatiwontlosethisfeelingasdayspassed.

ithasbeensuchalongtimesinceihadthisfeelingagain.

ireallydontwanttoloseit.

butisitreallysupposetobemine?

idontknowidondaretothinkandtalkaboutit.

howiwishiwasntlikethat.

cantthegodjustgivemesomeonewhoicanreallyrelyon?

howcanibesurethatitwillornotbemine?

with love, hann ❤19:21

Friday, October 3, 2008

Now i realised i don't really belong to the clique.

I can't really get into the conversations you all have.

I'm getting depressed again. =/

There's no one i can confide to except ahboii & huiting.

Really thanks them alot. =)

I feel like crying, but i can only force myself not to.

I don't understand why is my life like that.

Why mus i suffer all these things? Why can't it just go away?

I cried in class yesterday, luckily no one noticed i think.

I wana cry my heart out. But i don't want to be alone. =/

I know i've changed alot since sec1, but what choice do i have?

This is the only way i can prevent myself from thinking about things that i don't want to.

I'm so sorry.

Home is suppose to be the most relaxed place one could have.

But mine, it's the plac e which i wanted to avoid the most.

Being at home is like in a place with strangers.

Everyone just did their own things, hardly communicate.

Memories can't be erased. Sadness will always be there.

The pain can't be eased. There's no cure to it.

I still don't have the courage to overcome it after 3yrs. =/

Really hate my life. It sucks.

Went for movies with huiting today.

Watch Connected. The show was damn nice & funny! =)

I like it! It seems years when we last watch a movie!

Thumbs up for Connected! ^^

Oya! I bought a gloomy bear stuff toy! ^^

Now i got 2 gloomy stuff toy, 2 gloomy claw & 1 gloomy pouch! YEAH! =D

I LOVE GLOOMY! =X

To ahboii:

Remember the promise ehhs.

You keep your promise & i promised you that i won't hurt myself again.

Thanks ahboii. =)

with love, hann ❤20:08

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Had a damn fun day on wednesday! ^^

Ahboii wanted me to teach him chemistry, so decided to meet at 2.30pm.

Then because he going to eat lunch, so i waited till i was falling asleep! lOlx.

Saw kejun at bus stop when i was on the way to meet ahboii. =)

We reach the side gate at almost the same time! =X hee.

Then walk to his house after that.

Saw an ambulance when walking half-way, & it went to ahboii's condo!

When we went in then realised that something badd happened.

I was like pushing ahboii so he can block my view because i don't dare see. =/

We went to a so-called study place to do chemistry.

We were chatting all the while & i was forcing him to do his tys! LOL. =X

After 4hours, he finally managed to finish his tys's MCQs. =D

Continue our chit-chat sessions after that.

Decided to go home at around 8plus. =X

Ahboii sent mi home half-way nia! lOlx. Cause he has to go home for dinner.

Anyway, ahboii. Thanks! =)

I'm glad that you're willing to accompany me when i'm unhappy.

Really thanks alot. ^^

Thanks huiting for accompanying me also!

I'm glad to have you as a friend too! =D

Thanks everyone who cares about me!

Loves you guys! =X

Alot things happened today. I don't know what i can say.

I don't know what can i do. I'm getting depressed.

Almost cried in class today again. =/

Haii. Anyone help me please. )=

with love, hann ❤20:05