I'm not in the mood recently.
Prelims are finally over. Awaits for my results to be announced.
Bets with ahboii about our prelims results will be out by next week.
Sweets are the bet items for it. =) YEAH!
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Life's going on as usual, feel like crying but forced myself not to.
When i didn't say anything, doesn't mean that i don't mind.
I may say that i don't care, but in fact i do.
Too many things had happened in my life, no one can understand.
Losing love ones, being pangseh since young, betrayed by friends.
What more can i do but to bottle it inside me.
Maybe being happy-go-lucky is the best way to cover up things.
At least people won't ask about things that i don't wish to talk about.
Judging people by what they see & not by what they really know is shit.
I'm not good in using my words doesn't mean i have a bad character.
There's no way i can stop anyone from saying bad things about me.
But it only shows people that u're narrow-mindedd.
Things you see with yours eyes is not always the truth.
So please don't judge anyone with just what u see, get ur facts right first.
Substitues? Haa. Maybe i should get used to it by now.
Just the spare & lonely one.
No one understands, not even myself.
How i wish i could be the one taking your place.
Then maybe people will remember me when i'm gone. =)
Confused in deciding if i should continue it. I'm tiredd but trying to hang on.
I did try, but who knows? Only me.
How i wish i could numb myself from everything, so i won't get hurt again.
Won't feel the pain of losing, hurted & left alone.
Or maybe i should just make myself crazy, so i will always be happy.
Leaving the world will be a better choice? I don't know.
I'm depressed & sadd. =/
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I just want to cry myself to sleep..
